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Saturday, 4 October 2014

NINETY-ONE/ a fever you can't sweat out

Truth be told, the pictures below were taken in July. I almost wore this outfit out to a friend's birthday (at a disco themed night called 'fever' at a local bar) but I frantically changed right after these photos were taken. Why? Because I hated how I looked. When I looked at these pictures on Laura's camera, I felt sick. I hated how I looked in the top and I didn't feel like my usual confident self. It was definitely a moment of weakness but that's something we all fall victim to sometimes.

Looking back, changing my outfit wasn't the best option. I truly loved this look, I just didn't like how it looked on me at the time. Instead I went with a basic dress and I felt boring the entire night. I should have let my personality shine through, I should have remained strong... but I let my insecurities win.

In general, I'm not typically the person who worries if something is flattering or not but it does happen from time to time. I used to beat myself up over it when it would happen, but I've come that those moments of doubt are okay and that they're human.

When I look back on these pictures, I don't see what I saw that day. I see someone who is confident, strong and fierce. I'll have to make it a point to wear this outfit out on a different day and I will rock it with every ounce of strength that I know I have.

TOP/ Brand Unknown (thrifted) LEGGINGS/ American Apparel 
BAG/ H&M SHOES/ New Look
Photos by Laura Kidd