Monday, 25 April 2016

139/ DONE

I first saw this cactus crop top from Forever 21 a little while ago and I've longed for it since. It didn't come home with me until recently for one simple reason: I was afraid.

Afraid of my arms showing. Of my stomach showing. Of wearing the wrong bra with it and having that show, too.

I've never really been afraid of my body so these feelings were pretty new to me. The feelings are still pretty hard to process; but I guess that's what it is, it's a process.

As someone with a fat body - I am tired of overdressing, overcompensating and apologizing.

I am fat and no amount of layers or black pieces of clothing is going to change that. That is something that I've come to terms with. It's definitely not my biggest insecurity, but it is something that I'm hyper aware of. It's my body, I have to live with it every day and I'm going to try to put on whatever makes me happy. The second that I decided to forego wearing typically 'flattering' clothes is the day that I started falling in love with fashion again.

And honestly? I'm done with hiding. My arms. My scars. My fat. My body. My personality. I'm twenty-four years old and I want the world to see me for who I am and clothes give me the confidence to do that.

When I finally bought this crop top, I felt free. I put it on as soon as I came home from the mall and I took the photos pictured below. I set up my camera on a tripod, put on the self timer and staged my own mini photo shoot. They're not the best quality pictures in the world, but I love them. I look so carefree, happy and confident in them and I want the world to know that version of me.

This post is more of a rant than anything else. It's extremely personal and if it makes little to no sense, I give little to no cares. It makes sense in my head in my heart. Wearing what makes you feel your best can be a very hard, and sometimes dangerous, thing to do for some people and I respect and understand that. I would never judge someone because of that. I guess what I'm saying in all of this is that I'm coming to terms with my body and I no longer want my personal style to reflect what society wants/expects of me. It's going to be an immensely personal journey and I'm hoping that my future (and recent) posts will reflect it.

TOP & JEANS/ Forever 21+

Thursday, 21 April 2016

138/ WEEKEND WEAR

There's something so understated about the classic jeans and white shirt combo. I love it even more when the jeans are ripped to hell; bonus points if the look is tied together with jean jacket too. It has the ability to be such a carefree and effortless look, if done right. I've blogged about my love for the Canadian Tuxedo before and I'm here to confirm that our love affair is still going strong.

I wore this ensemble this past Saturday to see my best friend, Laura, walk in yet another Kristie Lance show. She absolutely killed it and I couldn't be more proud.

JACKET/ Old Navy TOP/ Penningtons JEANS/ Jessica Simpson 
BOOTS/ Sam & Libby HANDBAG/ 3.1 Phillip Lim WATCH/ Seiko
BAG CHARM/ Giant Tiger (faux fur)
Photos by Laura Kidd

Thursday, 31 March 2016

137/ GREY DAYS

Grey skies are going to clear up, put on a happy face.
My life lately has been a series of grey days, with some sunshine thrown into the mix. I mean that both literally and figuratively. I won't go too much into detail so you're more than welcome to take that statement however you'd like.

This will come as no surprise but the one thing that I can always go back to make me happy is fashion. Shopping in particular has the ability to bring about a sort of euphoric feeling in me. I always feel ridiculous and superficial when I say that, but everyone has their vices. Sales in particular are my guilty pleasure; if I've said it once, I've said it a million times - there's nothing I love more than finding a great deal.

Patience is a virtue, though. I've been eyeing this coat for what seems like centuries now and I've checked up on it in store more than I'd care to admit. The original price tag was a hefty $120 and although I have a great love for this piece, I wasn't about to drop that kind of money at a store like H&M. #sorrynotsorry

So I waited it out. For months. You know what they say, the first markdown is the hardest. I almost pounced on it at that moment but I'm glad I held out. It ended up coming home with me after a grueling couple of months but I only paid $35 for it. It was well worth the wait.

This grey coat is definitely my favourite piece in my closet right now. I love the way it fits and I adore the way it makes me feel when I wear it. I feel as though I can take over the world as long as its on my back. Kind of like a Superman cape of sorts.

COAT/ H&M+ SCARF/ Forever 21 JEANS/ Forever 21+ 
BOOTIES/ Ann Marino BAG/ Madewell et Sezane (via consignment)
WATCH/ Seiko
Photos by Laura Kidd

Tuesday, 29 March 2016

135/ RUNWAY FOR HOPE

This blog post is a bit delayed, even for me. I'd like to offer so sort of reasoning but the truth is life just gets in the way sometimes. I'm trying to be better.

About a week and a half ago I had the honour of attending Runway For Hope. I love me a good fashion show but this one was extra special because my best friend, Laura of The Fashion Kidd, was walking in it! Her sister, Lisa, and I were so proud to see her making her runway debut.

For my outfit of the night I decided to go with a dark red tutu that I had picked up in Florida this past January paired with a slogan tee from Stay Home Club. I love the contrast between the traditionally feminine tutu skirt and the self-deprecating graphic tee.

TOP/ Stay Home Club SKIRT/ Freckles SHOES/ Cute to the Core 
CLUTCH/ Secondhand NECKLACE/ H&M WATCH/ Seiko

Outfit photo by Lisa Kidd