Wednesday, 25 May 2016

141/ NO COMPLAINTS

This blog post is super delayed. These pictures were taken a couple of weeks ago when I visited Toronto with my best friends, Laura and Lisa.

I'm not even really sure what to say about that trip. Laura was off doing white tantric yoga the day that these photos were taken and Lisa and I had the day to explore the city. Our friend that we were staying with, Jessie, had to work to the better part of the day so he gave us instructions on where to go and how to get there. Lisa and I thought we were going to have a relaxing day in the city, but things never really go as planned.

It didn't really end up being that dramatic. Just frustrating. Basically the subway was down between a few stops (obviously where we needed it) and the shuttle buses that the TTC supplied were what I picture hell to be like. We ended up spending a big chunk of the day walking. I'm thankful that I was smart enough to wear a pair of shorts under my skirt to prevent chaffing, and although my shoes were comfortable, I did end up with a few blisters.

But whatever, that's life. Things never go as planned but I think we made the best out of our situation. If our biggest complaint that day was the amount of walking that we had to do, I see that as a victory. Last time I went to Toronto I came home with a concussion that messed up my life for a few months, this time I came home with a few blisters. No complaints.

TOP/ Forever 21+ SKIRT/ Thrifted (no brand) BAG/ Milly
SHOES/ Converse
Photos by Lisa Kidd

Wednesday, 11 May 2016

140/ ROAD TRIP ESSENTIALS

I spent last weekend in Toronto and this is what I wore on the car ride there.

I have been on my fair share of road trips; I have fond memories of driving to the east coast with my parents when I was a child and I've made the trek out to Alberta a couple of times as well. That's not even to mention the countless times that I've traveled to upstate New York with my mother and Montreal/Toronto with my friends. With that being said, road trips are definitely not for the faint of heart.

There's a lot of nothing. And waiting. And siting. And staring out of car windows. And coffee. Lots of coffee. And things can go wrong... things can go very wrong.

My best advice? Make sure you're on the trip with people that can turn any event into an exciting one. For me, that means my best friends. The drive to Toronto from Ottawa isn't a very long stretch (only about 5hrs in total) but that can seem like eternity if you're with the wrong people.

Here's another tip: WEAR. COMFORTABLE. CLOTHES. I don't care who you are - if you're uncomfortable for a long period of time it will 100% show up in your attitude and no one wants to be stuck in a car for several hours with someone who's in a foul mood. 

For this trip I decided to wear my favourite black skinny jeans with a ridiculously high waist, a flowy sleeveless blouse and my favourite denim moto jacket from Eileen Fisher. I felt chic but I was also at ease the entire drive. I'm also that disgusting person who likes to take their shoes off in a car so I went for a pair of sandals that I could remove on the sly when no one was paying attention. #sorrynotsorry

The colourful bag from Milly that I brought with me is a bit deceiving; it looks tiny on the outside but fits everything you need and more. My purse essentials while on a trip? Hand cream and lip balm. I dry out like a raisin and I need to be constantly moisturizing. Identification is always a good thing to have on your person as well and I always always always try to carry cash with me for unexpected expenses. Sunglasses are a necessity too - you can fall asleep when the driver isn't playing Beyonce and no one's the wiser. Also they're good to keep the sun out of your eyes or whatever.

JACKET/ Eileen Fisher TOP/ H&M+ JEANS/ Forever 21+ (diy raw hem)
BAG/ Milly SHOES/ Birkenstock SUNGLASSES/ Ardene
Photos by Laura Kidd

Monday, 25 April 2016

139/ DONE

I first saw this cactus crop top from Forever 21 a little while ago and I've longed for it since. It didn't come home with me until recently for one simple reason: I was afraid.

Afraid of my arms showing. Of my stomach showing. Of wearing the wrong bra with it and having that show, too.

I've never really been afraid of my body so these feelings were pretty new to me. The feelings are still pretty hard to process; but I guess that's what it is, it's a process.

As someone with a fat body - I am tired of overdressing, overcompensating and apologizing.

I am fat and no amount of layers or black pieces of clothing is going to change that. That is something that I've come to terms with. It's definitely not my biggest insecurity, but it is something that I'm hyper aware of. It's my body, I have to live with it every day and I'm going to try to put on whatever makes me happy. The second that I decided to forego wearing typically 'flattering' clothes is the day that I started falling in love with fashion again.

And honestly? I'm done with hiding. My arms. My scars. My fat. My body. My personality. I'm twenty-four years old and I want the world to see me for who I am and clothes give me the confidence to do that.

When I finally bought this crop top, I felt free. I put it on as soon as I came home from the mall and I took the photos pictured below. I set up my camera on a tripod, put on the self timer and staged my own mini photo shoot. They're not the best quality pictures in the world, but I love them. I look so carefree, happy and confident in them and I want the world to know that version of me.

This post is more of a rant than anything else. It's extremely personal and if it makes little to no sense, I give little to no cares. It makes sense in my head in my heart. Wearing what makes you feel your best can be a very hard, and sometimes dangerous, thing to do for some people and I respect and understand that. I would never judge someone because of that. I guess what I'm saying in all of this is that I'm coming to terms with my body and I no longer want my personal style to reflect what society wants/expects of me. It's going to be an immensely personal journey and I'm hoping that my future (and recent) posts will reflect it.

TOP & JEANS/ Forever 21+

Thursday, 21 April 2016

138/ WEEKEND WEAR

There's something so understated about the classic jeans and white shirt combo. I love it even more when the jeans are ripped to hell; bonus points if the look is tied together with jean jacket too. It has the ability to be such a carefree and effortless look, if done right. I've blogged about my love for the Canadian Tuxedo before and I'm here to confirm that our love affair is still going strong.

I wore this ensemble this past Saturday to see my best friend, Laura, walk in yet another Kristie Lance show. She absolutely killed it and I couldn't be more proud.

JACKET/ Old Navy TOP/ Penningtons JEANS/ Jessica Simpson 
BOOTS/ Sam & Libby HANDBAG/ 3.1 Phillip Lim WATCH/ Seiko
BAG CHARM/ Giant Tiger (faux fur)
Photos by Laura Kidd